I've had a glass of tarik tea and now I find it hard to fall asleep so I decide to start writing on this blog (again). I am not going to elaborate serious matters like the last (3 years, yeah) posts, but I just want to outpour everything fulfilled my mind now.
Along with time, the more mature we are, everything faced are more complicated. There are many choices of life but they are not easy to be chosen. It has to be very careful to determine what we want and need. It is not like choosing between a candy and a bar of chocolate when still being a child anymore because what we take now will give a great impact to the future life and can not be repeated, either good or bad, happy or disappointing, it depends to our consideration now.
Some people advised to let the life flow and just focus to the actions nowadays but I don't really agree with that. I don't know. May be because I am an organized (and a bit silly :p peace!) girl, I think that the future has to be planned from now on. We have to plan our future education, future job and surely, our future partner of life (hehehe :p swag!).
As a Moeslem, I believe that humans plan but Allah determines so we have to always tawakkal to Allah. But we are also obliged to make efforts for the life. The problem now is, how to make sure that what we we are going to choose is right for our future. Then, how to unify (ngg.. or combine?) what we want and the desires of influenced people in our life such as the parents and the family if they are not in step.
Frankly speaking, I don't want to let the-people-whom-I-really-love down if what I want is not what they expect. But, I am really afraid to compromise with others if it is about my future life because I think my life is mine, I who will undergo it and I have rights to organise it,
At the end, I will remain to appreciate what the others advised and desired, moreover if it is from the parents. But still, I will firstly follow my passion, and my heart, to choose the choices of my life. I am sure that Allah always guide me to the best way in my destiny whom He has been written. At least, either it will be good or bad, I've made my own plan, choosen my path, so I will not blame anyone.
Am I right? Is there any other opinions? Is there anyone who has the same thought like me now?
